At the End: Stations of the Cross

At the End, 13th.  At the beginning: 14th 

Stations of the Cross:  

Her tears ran down her cheeks//Because she had none

to comfort her

Thirteenth station: -the body of Jesus is laid in the arms of his mother

                                      Reader: We adore you oh Christ and we bless you

                                      Mother: Because by your holy cross you have redeemed the world.

                       

Because I want  

his absence beatified I want it

to prove miracles.  I want his limbs

his limbs! to sprint, I want his hands

his hands! to hold my hand.  I! want! Him! Alive!

Not not be.  Not this wet dredge.  Not this,

this ... I want. I want...

Do you have something other than this

my gut on my tongue?  I want

Goddamn I want him back, alive to me back I want him instead, 

           

instead! of Jesus God Mary

instead of sin I want

noise his noise I want scabs

his scabs, sweat his sweat I want

it all on my lips I want

not these stiff white beads I want

his knuckles under my thumb, his sitting on my lap (he wasn't too big
for that) I want               GOD

before they float away with him float away with him I want him.

Fourteenth: - Jesus is laid in the tomb

                                                Reader: We Adore you O Christ and we bless you:
                                                People: Because by your holy cross you have redeemed the world.